Recently I have come across plenty of
oppertunities opper opportunities to really change the way my life works and what I can achieve with it. My father tells me “Only one person stops you from doing what you want to do - yourself,” although I find this true in some cases there is always the act of money or someone objecting to your cause.
..Anyway, the point I’m trying to get at that maybe this is the best time to change my life, thinking of stuff that would benefit me because I’m at a point where I can say that I’m not particularly happy with myself.
Now. Things I could change…
I guess I’ve always found myself too skinny compared to other guys so perhaps I could think about buffing out and becoming a bit more muscular. Yeah! People tend to have a sense of security around people who are able to defend themselves if they come across unwanted company… Wait, no, that’s stupid. I’ve been told from time to time that I’m scary and too serious, so buffing out could just make people uncomfortable around me. Also keeping a figure seems hard so I’d only probably go for this if a career choice had me do it.
Guess I could become fat. They’re always jolly people, easily approachable and it’ll
certia certainly give me some squish to replace this otherwise boney frame. So long as it isn’t grotesque (Fuck, I spelt that right!), I’ve always thought fat to be “more to love” and if I get bored of it I could always work out and then turn the fat into buffness… Eh, but then I’d probably get too lazy to get around too it or too comfortable with food in order to give it up, but then I take onto the account that I have what I consider to be a small stomach, fattening me up would probably be the hardest part and of course if I just let it happen then it’ll be out of not moving or doing much to a stage where I just become unhealthy, which is something I’m not aiming for.
I know this probably doesn’t make a lot of sense but this is the kind of things I go through when considering a change. I know I’m probably going to look back at this in my 20’s and 30’s to remind myself what I did to become what I am. However picturing my future self is getting rather blurry because of my very indecisive way whether or not I should go through a change.
…”Only one person stops you from doing what you want to do - yourself.”
From what I’ve said I can’t really argue with my dad’s advice, I am
definately definitely stopping myself on something I wanna do, but there’s that mid point between point A and point B that maybe the long road isn’t worth it in the end.
I’ll probably write more about changes as they come by or just generally when I’ve considered a change about something. But for now, I’ve got more decisions to make.
… Let’s count to three.